Tuesday, December 25, 2007

morning oj


so i decided to start one of my many new year's resolutions a bit early. in my experience, january 1st has never been a great day to start a new life. in the past i've found that by the time noon rolls around, i've already broken most of my resolutions. it usually goes something like this . . . wake up late (1)be more responsible), feeling very lethargic (2)start exercise regime), hung-over (3)drink less and 4)take care of your skin), hungry for greasy food (5)eat healthy) and totally stressed about the long list of resolutions that i have to uphold (6)manage stress better). so needless to say, i felt a new plan was in order. the other day i decided that i put too much pressure on myself with all of these resolutions (i do a whole list on my birthday as well, and they, too, fall by the wayside within days). instead this year i would just come up with one resolution. of course that didn't work, since my one resolution was an all encompassing "be better at everything." at 36, i realize, that is not going to happen. i'm going to have to narrow down "everything." i think what i really want is to live more consciously. make conscious decisions, take time to appreciate things, slow down, think before speaking, think before screaming, act on impulses (not screaming impulses, but creative impulses). i decided that i have spent years entertaining one great idea after another, acted on very few, and brought to fruition even less. my promise to myself is to follow through on my ideas, no matter how scary or time consuming they may be, and just see how that turns out. so here is my first idea. a blog with my polaroids (and thoughts if i feel like it). let's see how long it lasts.

6 comments:

Mimi said...

Wait until you have children! You won't have time to think about all the things you are doing wrong--or not doing at all.

Love the photos--Mimi

jen said...

for now i am still stuck with my demons.

Anonymous said...

Jen, I just found your blog and I love it. I too am one of those creative people that have a million ideas, but never act on them. Good for you for doing the blog - and look! - it has not died.

Faith said...

LOVE this post!

east side bride said...

you just described me.

bianca jones said...

love love this. wanted to look at your first post as I was curious about the start. i've just started mine and feel like i sway between fear of what ppl will think and indifference. but your summing up of all those doubts and 'to-do's. two years on your still at it. congratulations x