Tuesday, March 10, 2009

goodbye, heidi


yesterday was one of those days that you wake up and within about 10 minutes you realize, this is just not going to be a good day. nothing big, just a lot of little things that make you want to go to bed and just miss this particular day. i usually try to fight those days in my mind. tell myself not to get drawn in. there is still a lot to be grateful for and there is always an upside to things.

unfortunately, the day won yesterday as i lost a dear friend to cancer. she gave it such a good fight and was so brave. and although i struggle with my own beliefs (does heaven really exist?) i sure hope in heidi's case it does. if there is anyone in the world that deserves a place like heaven, that's my heidi.

so today, no matter how many little inconveniences i encounter, i will find something to be grateful for, and i hope you will, too.

31 comments:

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry. Sending a hug your way.

Anonymous said...

We too just lost a dear uncle to cancer on Sunday. It is horrible to see someone suffer so, but you know they are in a better place now with no pain. I am sorry...but, I got my Real Simple today and I ran to the page where I might see your picture and you know what, there you were in the contributor's section with your lovely polaroid talking about almost taking half the set with you. Congrats on this.

g and h said...

oh boy. cancer sucks. i'm sorry to hear about your friend, jen. lots of good energy and sweet thoughts to you. :)

g

Cindy said...

i will ... i'm very sorry.

Jacinda Davis said...

I'm really sorry Jen. Cancer is such a pain. It takes some and leaves others. Losing someone is never easy, but it's good in that it forces us to evaluate our own lives. It makes us wonder what happens after life and what kind of impact we can still leave on those around us.

Veruca said...

very beautiful blog!

Rachel B said...

my thoughts are with you today.

Miss B said...

Warmest thoughts wrapped in silver ribbons, from a stranger to you.

marthalena said...

Sending thoughts and prayers your way -- and Heidi's. Cancer really is the worst.

*M* said...

I'm so sorry to hear about your friend. I know we don't know each other, but I'm sending good thoughts and love your way.

Suzanne said...

very sorry to hear that. cancer is so terrible.
today i will choose to be grateful for the beautiful sunshine (even though the temperature is well below freezing).

parisa mahmoudi said...

So sorry!

Anonymous said...

oh my goodness..so SO sorry to hear about your friend...

Joanna Goddard said...

oh that's so sad, jen. i'm sending you a big hug. i'm really sorry to hear that. love, joanna

Anonymous said...

I am so sorry. Losing someone is unbearable, but your attitude is very strong and healthy.

Sara Downton said...

i'm so sad to hear this.
sending love <33

Anonymous said...

I'm so sorry. It's never easy to lose someone. I wish you and your loved ones good vibes and warm thoughts.

east side bride said...

I'm so sorry. <3

"hi, i'm ginnybranch stelling and i love love." said...

oh i am so sorry for your loss. i will be thinking good thoughts for you and heidi's family.

Erin Gates said...

I am so sorry for your loss. :(

kerri said...

big love wee chicken


x

Clare said...

just stumbled on your blog by way of the English Muse. As a cancer survivor, I know what a battle it can be and I am so sorry that you lost your friend.

"KAT" {for short} said...
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"KAT" {for short} said...

stumbled on your website through design sponge. just wana say that i love and am moved by your work. and i will continue to keep up with it. seeing your photography what came to mind was...pictures have such souls in them...but only when done right. :)

anyhow, i and my family have lost 3 people to cancer in the span of just these past 3 years. if heidi was in heaven, maybe they're laughing all together.

still, to have woken up in the great moments, knowing they were (and remain) a part of it, makes it pretty worth it.

:)
catherine

alexandra grecco said...

i'm sorry for your loss. many hugs. xoxo

Anonymous said...

sending you hugs of restorative warmth...

Polaroid soph said...

hug. what a lovely post

Unknown said...

i am so sorry to hear this. i recently lost someone too, and it's so hard. :( hang in there, and congrats on your lemons :)

Cynthia said...

Oh Jen. My thoughts go out to you. I lost my best friend this last November and your posts feelings I know to well. Find solace in art and taking your beautiful photos. Your friend I am sure is so proud of your creativity.

Unknown said...

I'm so sorry for your loss. I lost a friend to cancer 6 years ago this October. :(

I've been following your blog for a while and I was so happy to see you featured in Lucky this month:)

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