cumquats

not the most creative title for a blog post, but appropriate nonetheless.
i wonder if these lovely people could make something delicious with them?

and one other thing. . . a sweet little video that janine made for the jen11 project. we had to write 5 words that described us. janine chose optimistic for me, so i better unwedge myself, right? i don't want to let her down.

where does the time go?

where the heck does the time go? i didn't post all week. i'm sorry. i had all intentions of posting and then somehow . . .pouf . . . the time was gone. that, plus the fact that i am totally wedged. do you ever get that? when you are just wedged into a weird spot in your mind. i get it every now and again, and it ain't fun. it's not the worst, it's just weird. you know you should be happy and grateful and think positive, but you feel pessimism right there standing directly behind you and in front of you, simultaneously. scary, right? oh, pessimism, leave me, please leave me. i fought long and hard to conquer you years ago and most of the time you remain my prisoner, but then once in a while - - there you are, and i'm, well, wedged. so please, folks, just bear with me. i think it's just that building a small accessories empire and starting a photography career simultaneously may be tough. not to worry, cause i just happen to be really, really tough. so i will continue, and neither will happen as quickly as i would like (due in part to the fact that i am still addicted to facebook and blogs and bret michaels rock of love). but it will happen! ahhh, thanks for listening. i think i might be un-wedging myself right now.

oh, and i totally forgot to tell you about this and this (i'm in episode one). i actually forget a lot now. i didn't used to, but now i do. love me or leave me, i guess.

thanks for sticking with me.

ps. not sure if you can see the time this posted but it is really late for me. andrew and i have switched sleep schedules ala freaky friday. he's now tired at 10 and i am wide awake at midnight. i don't like it. the whole goal was to try to go to sleep at the same time. darn. hold on, i just got tired. ok, i am going to embrace it. quickly hit publish and then run into bed and hopefully drift off into dreamland. i apologize for not proofreading this post. forgive me.

my new mug

this is by no means meant to describe me. we have a communal kitchen at the ban.do studio that we share with a bunch of guys - - which begs the question, "whose mug is this?" i'll tell you whose mug it is, it's my mug. this way, i can at least feel exceptional for 20 minutes every morning while i drink my tea. i will just look in the mirror, holding my mug and say repeatedly, "i am the exceptional woman, i am the exceptional woman."

what would your mug say?

when life gives you lemons . . .

cut'em in half, take a photo of them and have real simple put it on the cover of their magazine!

how cool is that? i am so excited! hip hip hooray for lemons.

this is a welcomed good thing after losing heidi. i just wish she would have seen it. she has been really supportive of my photography. i'm gonna go out side and hold it as high up as i can and hope that she can see it from heaven.



oh, and there's more. is it okay if i boast? it is? thanks. my new best friends (sorry old best friends, you've been replaced) also used an image of mine for the table of contents, the book mark for this issue and gave me a ten page spread. that last part i knew about. oh, and they used this polaroid of me for the contributors page.

a huge thank you to my other new best friend andrew purcell. he helped me out tremendously (he is now my second favorite andrew in the whole wide world next to this guy.)

goodbye, heidi

yesterday was one of those days that you wake up and within about 10 minutes you realize, this is just not going to be a good day. nothing big, just a lot of little things that make you want to go to bed and just miss this particular day. i usually try to fight those days in my mind. tell myself not to get drawn in. there is still a lot to be grateful for and there is always an upside to things.

unfortunately, the day won yesterday as i lost a dear friend to cancer. she gave it such a good fight and was so brave. and although i struggle with my own beliefs (does heaven really exist?) i sure hope in heidi's case it does. if there is anyone in the world that deserves a place like heaven, that's my heidi.

so today, no matter how many little inconveniences i encounter, i will find something to be grateful for, and i hope you will, too.

stuff i've got that i don't use

i have lots and lots of stuff that i don't use. mostly props from shoots, like beautiful bath salts, scrub brushes, etc. i figured i may as well take photos of them. that's kinda like using them, right?

a smidge of peonies

it's a sunny day here in southern california. a bit of a chill, at least for us (i.e. i am still insisting on wearing my cashmere hoodie and wool slippers that look like foot sweaters). the reality is that spring is on its way and i couldn't be happier. mostly because that means trader joe's will have bunches of peonies. my very favorite.

ban.do, part 2

pardon me, as i stray from polaroids for one more day (although, i thought you would like these shots regardless of their digital nature). but i had to tell you that
after months of hard work, we have managed to relaunch our site. hooray! we have added a lot of cool stuff. it's like a real live shopping experience now. so please, go and enjoy the fruits of our labors and tell all your friends.